dondon3

I feel.
Beautiful songs emanating from my soul.
I feel the numbing ebb of anger in my stomach - I need to know why - I need an apology. I force myself to forget and become peaceful.
Peace. I am Peace. But...
Love is the answer. Love is always the answer. I am in love, but I want to BE the love that gushes forth from every part of my being!
I am.
Unbreakable glass. Yet I want to break apart into a million fragments and scatter all over the universe; into every aching constellation and black hole, I will seep.
As love does.
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When I dream... it's not really dreaming. I leave my body and look down at myself sleeping; reaching out to myself. I see myself through my own eyes, yet they are not mine all in the same. I see the way my eyes look dark and haunted, the way my hair cascades down in golden ripples; the way my mouth looks as though it was not meant to hold many words. I see. When I dream it's as though my eyes become diamonds and I'm looking through so many facets - being in so many different places at once, yet remain still. When I dream it's as though I'm looking through a kaleidoscope that moves and twirls and all things suddenly seem so peculiar yet so natural. There between this world and the next, I drift through the silky viel of forgetfulness; caught in the surging foam of white waves of bliss. Dreams are not just dreams, they are ways to travel beyond ones self. They are the TRUE reality.

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I build my life around these dreams - I plan my future from them for they are not fantasies but things firmly grounded in reality. And these silent moments of suspension are more beautiful than any other and though I am small, I have been all over the universe and have touched every soul.
Love forms the fabric of dreams and dreams are the gateways to higher truth.

I have grown weary of shadows; I seek the light.
Seek the light and do not allow darkness to swallow you - for it will hold you and take you down with it.
I will ascend. I will NOT go down with it!
I will not. I will keep who I am. I will live on forever.

LOVE WILL LIVE FOREVER, whether it has a home or not.

I don't think that most people really know what hemp is or how it can be used. How are the laws restricting hemp ever going to be changed if the people are unaware?

And I have to ask:

Why is this plant so overlooked in terms of sustenance? The way I see it - it can repair the damage we've done to this planet and help our economy if people would only give it a chance. It's a living plant, and has every right to exist as anything else does - why repress it? With the history it holds - it should be illegal NOT to grow it!

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I am alive and well, it seems.

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I just hope
        

                      that

                                          I      




can              keep





                                          on       growing.

i am feeling a little removed from reality - but i am shyly learning to accept her death.

i've been feeling so terribly stuck - stuck between spiderwebs and enveloped in some deadly glue - i am stuck inside myself.

hurts! it all hurts!

i wish i didn't have this great need to escape and go far far far far away and to know all about the world.

i just feel so monstrous.

i realize that it's my own fault - being so concerned with the past more than the future.

but something wonderful is about to happen though - i can feel it.